fucking angry..
not cos of job. cos of somebody.
stupid big mouth.
wan to act guai n wan to be KPO.

my bf come my house gt disturb u meh.
need to tell the whole world ar??


jus simply super HATE HIM LA.
don talk to me la.
when u bring ur gf over.. i gt say out ma.
SHIT U LA.
JUS DON TALK TO ME I DON WAN TO TALK TO U.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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No mood la.. totally no mood.
now jus come back from work. head dam pain.
wan to update abt dear n i de 11th month but no time to update.haiz.
i will try to updat soon.
if not go www.xzee.blogspot.com see also can. hahaha..






update soon..








miss u so much.
cos of the stupid fellow we today cant meet for lunch
only can meet for dinner some more a while only.
sian max ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

feel very sian tat y i am here..

i suddenly feel mu life is so boring..
everyday work after work go home.
den i still need to help wash clothes, fold clothes, iron clothes.....
need to wash my toilet... sweep my room, mop my room..
i feel i look like a house wife.. look like a maid..
i am very very tired.. super tired...

even meet bf we also gt no place to go..
not go my house den go his house.
if not go out eat dinner..
but also donno wat to eat.. den have to spend money again when both of us now no money.. haiz..
SIAN AR......


today bf come find me for my lunch..
buy food back to my house n eat wif his fren peter cos they morning went for ride..
after eat he went ride home den around 6 plus he go out wif peter again to have dinner..
today is his off day but we only meet for lunch..
nvm la.. thurs den meet lor.




my head very pain. super tired..
i am very tired super tired.
don feel like talking.
really hope i can jus lie down n do nth like a death person.. haiz.






update soon...



SIAN ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




miss u very much.
wish to see u but cant say.
scared u not happy.
cos i say we need time for ourself.
but jus miss u so badly. donno y..
jus feel very empty without u.. haiz.

i wan to blog but i donno wat to type.. so i will jus upload recent pic. haha.







fren out there..
i miss U ALL. feel like we have years haven meet.. i miss u all..
plan to meet all on sat.. i call vinson n tell him le he say will confirm wif me again..
lau po.. u all free ma?? on sat?? we go out together?? go shopping or wat also can. meet afternoon. cos i need to work also ma. so after i work. ok?? wan??


and of course i miss my lau gong. haha.
althought i jus miss him but only a while. cos we sleep almost half a day.
jus too tired after i work. KO stright after i have my lunch. haha.
den sleep until around 5 have to wake up n prepare cos dear dear going work.
tml going to meet dear dear again. he say wan to go bugis shop for his bike sticket..
i wan to buy more clothes.. but i gt no money now. have to wait till i get my pay lor..

oh.. tell u abt my work ba.. work for 1 week plus le. but i still gt so many thing i donno.
feel very useless. i wan to learn it all faster. but cannot hurry also.. dear say slowly la.. i too hurry the more i cannot learn lor..
now my sis go my office work part time. cos they need ppl. they giv my sis 1 hour $7 sia. so much. she earn more den me lor. haha. but she say very sian. haha.


ok la. don talk so much la. haha.
i will update soon again..




fren.. remember to call me to go out lei. like so long nobody ask me out.
only anna lau po called.. haha.






miss u lau gong
love u lau gong.

today is the thrid day of working..
how is my work??
ok.. fun cos is new..
still gt a lot of thing to learn. haha..
jia you.. haha.. i love my job.. =]

i am here to blog abt wed when we go celebrate yong jie birthday.. we meet around 8.. cos i end work around 6 den i need to go home change.. den angelia n anna lau po come around 10.. cos they OT.. so b4 they come we went to have our dinner at thai express den after tat went to eat ice cream. =]
here is the pic. but is edit by my bf.. cos i very lazy to edit.. haha.


sorry now i come back home i very lazy to use com.. only on my com to watch show.
really very tired.

this is super nice.. minced beef rice.. dam nice. but very oily.

i wan to go back there to eat again.. really very nice..

tat all..

update soon.

miss u bf.

love u so much.

i found a job...
really found a job le..

Hi-Tech Pte Ltd.
is it jus rite outside my house. i jus need less den 15 mins walk to reach the office..
tml will be my first day of work. 8.15am have to reach..
wish me gd luck..
i will work hard for it.. don let them look down on ITE student..
cos the boss say he scared of ITE student.. cos he employed ITE student de they work not few days or even half day they jus walk of.. say is too stress..
they say they wan to giv me a chance hope i wont be the same as them.. haha.
i will work hard n show them i am not the same. haha.
jia you jia you.. hahaha..



frens... congrat me again.. hahaha..

I AM USELESS.
TODAY I SUDDENLY REALISE TAT I AM USELESS IN EVERYTHING.
TIANG YAYI JASLESS IS USELESS. SHE IS SHIT. SHE IS NOTHING.
sob sob sob..

i cannot manage everything.
family, frens, even bf.
i am always the one who spoilt everything.
i am always the one who is in fault.
i donno how to manage time.
i don have time for myself.
my time is always for others.
i really feel like closing myself up for 1 week. jus don contact anybody.

now there is family problem. frens problem. bf problem.
i donno i donno i donno.. i feel very fan..

i wan to do all the thing nicely.
i wan everybody to be happy. but who think of me? am i happy?

my bf say i think of others too much.
i care for others more den myself.. is tat truth??




now my family problem is the worst.
haiz.

i love my bf.
i don wan to lose him.
cant i have family n bf together?
haiz.

those who call me on sat afternoon but cant find me. sorry i off my phone.
i have a super bad sat.





WHO WILL UNDERSTAND ME BESIDE MY BF??
now i come home.. my house is so quiet.
no one talking. all in their own room.
is this a house? a family?
haiz haiz haiz..
no mood. totally no mood.

sorry if i have say anything wrong or do anything wrong to anybody.
jus sorry.

went for an interview today at Aljunied..
and.........................................................
i am in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they call me at around 5 to tell me.. when my interview is at 11.30.. haha.
the company name is Chartered Agency Pte Ltd
working time is 9am-6.30pm [mon-fri] 9am-12pm [sat]
but not every sat.... eg. this sat need to work den next sat no need to work..
pay is $1200.. after 3 month confirm le den is $1300

congrat me.. fren.. come congrat me.. hahahahaha...

tml will be my first day of work le..
wish me gd luck ok.. hahaha...


tat all i wan to say..


but this i wan to say to my bf..
dear.. i going to start a new job le.. some time i think there will be OT..
we cant meet tat often like last time le..
some more i end later den last time...
n some sat i also need to work..
but we will still try to meet as long as we can de rite?
don be sad ok..
u noe this is wat i wan de ma.. rite??
u will wan me to be happy also de rite???

slowly accept all this ok..
will change a lot from now on..
we will get use to it de rite..
let work hard together ok.. =]



dear.. i love u a lots..
jus cant don have u..
missu lots..
muackz..

dam fed up la.. dam fed up wif my mum la.
SHIT LA....

say i go those place tat i donno to interview job..
pls la. when bro go interview he noe the place meh? he also check street directory wat..
he gt car of course easy for him la. i don have lei. wat she wan sia.
and some more those job is i look at the newspaper den email resume in de ma.. newspaper also nv write where the location is. how she wan me to noe.
if wan to find the place tat i noe den go work den go 1 office by 1 office to ask lor.. den like tat confirm noe the place cos u go find urself de ma.. can find the place tat u like den go ma..
FUCK rite. wat is tat man.

mind as well jus say u don wan me to go outside work la. den better rite..
talk until so nice for wat. ask me go find job if cant find den go study..
SHIT LA ALL SHIT LA....
talk only i also noe how to do.. DO STH TO PROVE LA..
USE MOUTH TO SAY ONLY WHO DONNO HOW TO DO..
JUS DAM BLOODY FUCK LA.



I SUPER DUPER DON LIKE THIS FAMILY.
I WILL NV NV TALK IN THIS FAMILY.
the only person i talk to is my sis..
only my sis i can talk to..
now even my bro also cant talk le.
no use. he will only side mum.


FUCK AR............................................................................................
I WILL NV BE HAPPY UNTIL I LEAVE THIS STUPID FAMILY.


change room she also wan to stop. we also nv ask her to pay anything.
ar.................shit la. jus don like this FAMILY LA.







cousin out there who is reading my blog.
don go tell anybody wat i write in my blog.
unless u wan me to be more not happy den go ahead n say.
sorry. i am jus not in a gd mood..

don talk to me now..
if not confirm kana scold by me..

bf is the first one le.
sorry dear..
jus really super fed up...

10.28pm

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actually i should be at the company interview now..
but.. jus now when i was on my way there. the clerk call n tell me tat her boss is not there ask me can i come in the afternoon around 3.15pm?
lucky i only reach bedok when she call me..
so i alight at the next stop n took train back..

sian lor.. now i stay home do nth..
later at around 1.45 i have to go out again..
i am so sleepy now. but cant sleep.


ok la.. tat all..
i only come in n complain. hahaha.





miss u so much..
love u... =]
muackz..

1 Mar 09

went out wif frens to celebrate fu wen's birthday..
went to na na thai at far east for dinner den went cash studio to sing.. is a new karaoke
quite cheap n have quite lots of song.. not a bad place to go.. hahaha..

but quite fed up tat day. cos all like taking their own sweet time to buy thing n meet.
always late for meeting..

2 Mar 09

meet dear after work.
went to watch Marley & me. not a bad show.
quite funny also. hahaha.. but for those who love dog den will sad at the ending part..
next movie we going to watch bloody valetine. is a 3D movie.
dear wan to watch.. is horror movie sia.. scary lei. haha

3 Mar 09

today nv go work.
i went for an interview.. wait for call again. haiz..
tml there is another interview. i think also have to wait for call again de ba...
nvm.. find slowly ba.. haha.

today my bf pei me go interview cos he off.
so after interview went back home to get some sleep. super tired sia.
wake up at around 4pm, prepare den we went to simpang bedok to pack food den went to cash studio near my house.
gd sia.. can bring food in de... not like kbox. some more cheaper. =]

first time went to sing wif bf.. haha.
i wan very happy. n very excited. haha.
but i wan to say sorry to dear cos i nv really sing. cos i donno much eng song..
sorry dear dear..

dear dear actually enjoying de.. cos he nv go karaoke b4 also.
but his mum 1 msg spoilt his mood. haiz.


haiz. tml have to go interview myself le.. sian
cos bf working..
so scary. some more i donno how to go the place..
wish me gd luck ba.. haha.



took quite a few photo but all my face look tired only this i think can make it. hahaha.



update soon...







miss u.
love u lots.
muackz..

sorry abt yesterday dear..
very sorry.