Boring. 

Super bored at work. i totally have nothing to do. Plus everything is block.
i can't go Facebook
i can't go Twitter
i can't Watch show
i can't Play games
i can't Play itouch

Everything cannot be done.
Today Jess just tell me that Allan (Boss) say don't watch show in the office. Say that we have CCTV in office he know what we doing.
Bullshit! Got CCTV so what. They are always out. Do you think they have time to see the CCTV recorder? plus even they see can they see so clearly what we are doing?
Confirm is th BITCH that sit behind me always peep on what i am doing and complain to the bosses. FUCK right? She just have nothing to do. What will she get when she complain?

Actually i thought of buying Rear mirror (those put inside car) to place it on top of my monitor. But i don't want to do until like this. Cos last time when happen to have a talk with Allan and he say " you won't want to keep checking on your blind spot." so i decided not to buy. but now i regret. The small mirror i have now really cannot see what she is doing. I am not interested on her face. i only want to see did she peep on me. over the small mirror i caught her a lot of time already but i wan to see more clearly.

Feel so stress to work here. There is always a person behind you peeping on you and telling boss what you have done. And not saying the good things is saying all the bad point. Even i have not down before she also can say. Nothing better to do. Is all Auntie at their 40s and not married are like that????
If not cos of my study and i want subsidy from NTUC i won't continue to work here. Haiz.
I have to bear with it till end of this year? OMG..
Who can help me???

Got any job that can work for 4 month only?? i just need to work for 4 month to complete my study then i can go work at childcare. just 4 month. i don't feel like staying in this company anymore.

imissyousomuch.

Bad Start of Wednesday. 

Have a bad morning today. early is the morning i realize that i have done something wrong on my job. and i am rushing to clear this problem cos is a very rush job. Need to be done NOW and FAST.
i am so angry and sad about myself already cos i bring trouble to my colleague. and suddenly there is people asking me this and that.
The phone keep ringing and the BITCH don wan to help pick up plus there is people keep pressing door bell worst is the person is looking for me. OMG. early in the morning so many things to do.

Wanted to call bf tell him that i am facing problem and i feel bad. Every time when i am facing problem i will call him and i will feel much more better after talking to him. cos he will tell me is not my fault, i don't wan this to happen also. i know is only a few words that everyone or myself can say to me. But come out from his mouth i will feel much more better.
but...... i call him and suddenly my colleague come to my table to ask me things and there is someone looking for me at the door. so i told him i call u back later. when i settle everything i call him back and he ask me am i free already?
Don't know is he or me. i just feel the way he talk to me like so unhappy. and i shout back.
maybe he don mean anything but i just feel that. i am so angry and sad about myself. haiz.


Is this my fault??? cos there is too many things happen at the same time. plus i do wrong thing, already in bad mood.
*Cool down, take a deep breath* 
Okay, is my fault. i am just not in the mood just now.

Sorry baobei. 

there is too many things happen at the same time. misunderstand the way you talk to me. 

at that time i feel you are unhappy and scolding me. 

Sorry. i am very sorry. 

Forgive me?